Friday, February 12, 2010

An update

We're still trying to do our best to cope with the loss of K.J. It's amazing how much an animal can touch your life, but he really did. This is one of my favorite pictures of him. He loved to lay in my lap, and seemed to do it every chance he got.

Everywhere we look around our place, we see things that remind us of him. Places where he'd lay, or play, or be K.J....which took a lot of work on his part, because he had a VERY unique personality. It's still very hard for us to believe that we lost him, especially since he wasn't quite 11. We always figured that we'd have at least another five years with him.

It may sound strange to non-animal lovers, but because he meant so much to us, we've decided that when we buy our wedding bands in the next month or two, we're going to have both of them engraved with his name, that way he will always be with us in some way.

Last night I had a very strange dream. In the dream, I woke up in the middle of the night having a lot of chest pain. Rebecca called the paramedics, and they rushed me to the hospital, but I died of a heart attack while they were trying to work on me. Quite surprising to my dream personality, I came back as a ghost in the hospital. I quickly left the hospital and headed home.

As I came through our door (literally), I saw K.J. laying on the back of the couch in his favorite spot. I said, "Bubu," and he looked up at me with this expression that seemed to say, "You can see me?" I picked him up and hugged him close, but then we realized that Rebecca and the girls were devastated, and there was nothing we could do for them.

A quick jump in dream time, and Rebecca and the girls were packing to move to Texas to live with her mom. As they were leaving, I picked K.J. up and carried him down to our van. We then rode with them all the way to Texas so that we could be with them.

Like I said, very strange...

1 comment:

Jim Shannon said...

Sorry to hear about your loss J. When my 18 year old Pledges had to be put down last October, we had him cremated and his ashes in an urn. He sits there peacefuly every day.